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[13 Feb 2007|11:15pm] |
i hate this thing
but oh well
here it goes
i leave for boston for a week tomorrow
Humboldt for spring break!
europe in the summer
Washington D.C. for fall semester
Jamaica for a week during winter break (tentative)
and i got to go to HAWAII with my favorite ppl in the world: my family.
i'm definitely who i want to be
and i am growing up by my definition and into that person i always wanted to be.
♥ thank you lord. thank you life. thank you momma. thank you daddy.
my dreams are true
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| BOSTON. Europe. a World Citizen |
[28 Jan 2007|01:14pm] |
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already packing for BOSTON
i fly valentine's day ♥ my gift to myself
yay for Model UN :)
i found out this week if i'm going to europe this summer.
please lord, i want to so badly.
BTW i have the best of friends. so i already am blessed.
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| PRIC E IS RIGHTTTT |
[06 Dec 2006|09:36am] |
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My taping of PRICE IS RIGHT is todayyyyyyyyy.
Price Is Right- CBS- 10AM
if you want to just see me i'm in the last half.
i had fun.
so have fun and watch it.
i'm loving this month right now BTW.
♥
oh yes and have a merry christmas if i don't see you.
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[19 Oct 2006|07:23pm] |
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wow
i've had this stupid head cold for a week now.
i'm sick of it literally- no pun intended.
anyways.
life is pretty good.
although
my mother is leaving for new orleans for a week on saturday.
i'm selfish and will miss her.
but hey so will my daddy and sister.
BTW speaking of my sister
she is wonderful
she makes me happy. and i think she is becoming a beautiful young lady.
♥
xoxox
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| this is for me. to remember when the time comes for someone i love. |
[07 Oct 2006|03:25pm] |
i have yet to lose someone.
but i heard this today:
Question: "why do people have to die?"
Response: "to make life important."
this makes me want to run home and hug everyone i love.
everyone i would miss if they were really truly gone.
but most of all, the people who i know are closest to the end of their lives.
yet, people die for all reasons.
i may be gone tomorrow.
so may my sister.
LIFE IS IMPORTANT
don't forget it, because when you do, someone or something will be lost.
♥♥♥
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[27 Sep 2006|12:58pm] |
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when days go wrong. i mean weeks go wrong they really go wrong.
every night except that night i've cried.
this is a hard week and hopefully it will get better either by tonight or by the next night.
i hate these feelings.
i need to be around jess.
i shouoldnt have eaten lunch in my room. i should go get some sun. My SAD (Seaonal Anxiety Disorder) will kick in otherwise.
no one cares.
eff all of this.,
i hate it.,
this isnt a happy entry.
maybe i am "hostile" and "negative"
lol
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
i hate this week.
mom, i need a hug.
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| ...this cannot be it. |
[16 Sep 2006|03:52pm] |
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le tigre. i miss home and my sis |
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i'm waiting life.
get better.
not stressed. lol.
i hate the food here.
i say this cause i'm hungry.
i always am wondering if i've made the right decisions.
i know there are a few.
hahah, there have to be!
i never know what i want either.
or if i want things to be back to normal persay.
but i am happy.
i think.
ok so i'll get back to you on that.
♥
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| boys don't cry. but i do when i get hurt. bad. |
[09 Sep 2006|11:46pm] |
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i sliced my finger straight open tonight
i did not want my sister to take this picture.
i just had finished sobbing like a baby.
♥
home to CLU tomorrow.
i love that it's finally become home.
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| i dont have a working computer |
[30 Jul 2006|11:38am] |
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i know i haven't updated all summer
but that is solely because i have to hack inot someone else's wireless connection to do anything.
computers at CLU are way better. shoot. CLU is way better! hahha.
SHORT VERSON OF MY SUMMER
-i turned 19 about a week ago. (and went to disneyland with benji. bless his heart, i'm proud of him he finally god a job! YAY!)
-recieved good/semi-good grades in summer school.
-i got a cute pink beach cruiser for my birthday (really the begnning of july i got it)
-i leave for palm springs for a week in the morning.
-i go back to school on the 10th of august. to be an RA and an Admissions Intern. (with her own room)
i'm so excited.
i love it.
i love everything.
♥
P.S. i think i'll miss my mother the most.
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| finals. mono. moving out. |
[08 May 2006|06:49pm] |
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this week is FINALS WEEK.
and they diagnosed me with strep on friday.
BUT i had absolutely no response to the antibiotics.
thus!
i got tested for mono.
i found out manana if for sure i have mono.
and if so.
i get a shot in the booty. well maybe not the booty.
but you get the picture.
on the bright side, my boo took care of me like i was his baby/princess/precious.
and my roomies got me a get well present since all i've been doing is lying in bed and moaning.
it's awful.
i have the chills / fever / body aches & pains / double? ear infection / migraines / sore throat / SHIT.
that comes along with this wonder of a thing called mono.
but i love the people in my life.
love love love.
i love benji
and i love my family. (both blood and my clu girls:  )
i can't believe i only have two years left.
i rarely update people. give me some credit.
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[01 May 2006|02:01pm] |
i'm avoiding studying for my two finals/imidterm tomorrow.
and i love my sick boyfriend. (pray he feels better and his fever subsides)
on another note.
this will be ending:
my little family. (LtoR- me, kirsten anne, and jessi jean)
those girls.
gosh if any were to eff with the little one on the right. i'd seriously eff 'em up.
i'll always have that girl's back.
i move home: MAY 12 @ 5PM.
♥
love. love. l♥ve.
p.s. i really think i look yucky in this picture BUT it really is the only one we have of all three of us.
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| luau in the park |
[24 Apr 2006|09:09pm] |
these are the kinda happenings available.
these are the kinda cool kids i hang with
only when b-boo's not up
♥♥♥
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[11 Apr 2006|11:43pm] |
PAST
DISNEYLAND= the best weekend spent during freshman year ever
...(that i can remember accurately)
SPACE MOUNTAIN = absolutely fantastic. i was so dizzy it was the best.
SPRING BALL = yucky food, drunk bitties (haha), and weird music. CLU you are weird to begin with. let's face it.
PRESENT
MIDTERMS = crazy
ESSAYS= crazier
TERM PAPER FOR GEOLOGY = ok/needs to get done
Interview for Intern = good chance for me :)
FUTURE
SUMMER 06 = 15 units at VC, a p/t p/t p/t job. like one day a week, home, and boo
2ND YEAR = R.A., maybe lacrosse, and good room/roommates.
BENJI = amgen which = megan. wow how this crazy world works.
♥♥♥
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[16 Mar 2006|09:22pm] |
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I HATE TODAY
AND I HATE THESE FEELINGS.
i want break to start and never end
i got the RA position
and i get more anxious about the coming years of my life every day. (only when i actually think about them)...
i miss benji
i miss la
and i miss my sister
and my mom
and my dad
and my kittie, mixy
anybody else?
who needs em when i have the people right above here
things are needing some tears to heal. and i can't belive i wanna cry so much and i'm NOT pmsing
i'm so tirrrrrred.
all i want to do is sleep.
sleep with benji holding me
♥
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[07 Mar 2006|08:36pm] |
so basically
this one girl
that used to like my boo.
or still does
or whatever
PISSES ME OFF.
hahhaha
actaully i have better things to worry about then some girl danny already 'hit'
(more specifically: "don't knock it till you hit it." daniel rivera referencing "sneeze kittens")
anyways
classes are good
work is...eh. work.
RA final interview on THRUSDAY
and i have a paper to write that i am avoiding writing because i don't want to.
i hate mcteague.
♥
but i LOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVE benji
and my other best friend la.
♥♥♥
gosh. ;)
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[01 Mar 2006|04:59pm] |
i wish i wasn't up here alone
why doesn't benji just live under my bed?
that would make me happier
cause i could hang out with him ever chance i got.
sometimes i think living with girls SUCKS.
they are draama filled
and never shut up
and sometimes i don't care.
i wish i was a boy and didn't have to live with girls. did i already say i hate living with girls?
ok good
i might be an RA
i might get another scholarship- that i need
i might cry again right now, and tomorror for the third and fourth days (rtespectively) in a row.
gosh
where is my valentine
*hearts;
love
the wifey
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| where OH where are you? |
[13 Feb 2006|01:58pm] |
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BOO
you seemed to have left my world
my tiny bubble doesn't quite fit so smoothly together without you here with me.
i miss you terribly darling
and do not know what i shall do
as tomorrow i may only have a mere second to remind myself that it is valentine's day.
afterall one day does not signify or envelop any such love.
not real love at least.
come back to me
time is but of the essence
and thrusday a mere figment of my imagination
lest you are not such a figment
and this i need you
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
♥♥♥
love your broken hearted valentine.
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[11 Feb 2006|01:10pm] |
nothing really new to say
school is going well.
english and math sucks but o well.
i have 3 jobs
and i still am not stressed....
like i said nothing is new
but i never update
so here is an update
for you benji
i love you
happy birthday
and happy valentine's day boo.
you are my favorite
please come up to visit me on the v-day and stay until friday!
please.
Please?
PLEASE!!!!!
"we're just a minor threat"
♥
your valentine
before, after and all year long
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[24 Jan 2006|09:55pm] |
BENJI'S b-day is coming up!!!!
we are going to disneyland
and his dreams of an iPod are almost reality
gosh time is FLYING IT SEEMS
because then the LA marathon hits....and my parents are running in it.
next thing you know it will be spring break
weird.
i hit my foot today and fell down....it's bruised. and hurts.
just like my heart.
for multiple reasons:
sexual withdrawals....i mean LOVE(/sexual)....I LOVE HIM
i got forgotten all day today. and it was crazy busy.
i want a hug.
i want to cry.
i need a hug...
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